Coolest music video I've seen in a looong time. It totally establishes Allison a an artist. Kick-ass girl + kick-ass voice + kick-ass song + kick-ass video = major hit.

I gotta say, I'm respecting Kristen Stewart more and more. I saw the trailer for The Yellow Handkerchief and she completely won me over. I don't know, I'm not sure I agree with the decision to cast her as Bella still - she's grown on me as Bella for sure, but I'm not sure I agree with it. But as an actress I've begun to respect her more and more. She's a smart cookie, choosing her roles carefully.

Secondly, I really do not appreciate the double-standard of the Disney girls. Like Demi and Miley (but Demi more) get so much crap over behaving like normal teenage girls when Selena doesn't show any part of herself that's less than perfect and thus is being raised to the skies. Demi and Miley both own up to their mistakes and show girls that's it's okay to make mistakes, it's okay to not be perfect, yet they get trashed for what they do. Very few people focus on the good things they do, on what good role models they are. Meanwhile, Selena I'm sure makes as many mistakes as Demi and Miley only she doesn't let anyone see it - how is that being a good role model? How is showing off a picture-perfect surface being a good person to look up to? It only creates this image of having to be perfect to be successful. Demi gets crap for having scene friends, Selena has scene friends too who are probably equally as bad as Demi's friends, but does anyone say anything bad about Selena? No. Urg. It makes me pissed off. At least people have begun to accept Miley as a teenaged girl, they know she'll make mistake and they accept that.

( nothing that concrns anyone but me )

So... I'm starting to get a little restless. No work for a month or so and my boss has only called at the most annoying times ever. Always when I don't want/can't pick up or can't work. It's so stupid. I've printed out some resumes so I'm gonna hit the town tomorrow or Friday and hand some in. Hopefully it'll lead to some results, cause I just cannot work for that place anymore. I can't. I hate not knowing when I work, it's impossible to plan my life.

I should also look into college soon. Like before this year's over. I think the applications are due sometime in March, but if I wanna get into any form of dance education, I need an audition piece which I would have to choreograph.

And, I'm starting to think it's time for me to get my driver's license. I'm getting more and more willing to do it, I feel like it's a good thing to have even though I doubt I'll be driving much in the near future... I have a feeling I'm not the driving kind. I have no problems sitting in a car, driving long distances to go places, but I think actually being behind the wheel of a car, being responsible for the lives in the car as well as the car itself... Not really my thing. But I guess I don't know until I actually get my ass in gear and try it out. It's just shit expensive - and getting more expensive by the year. Sucks, I tell you.

Jo, bless her heart, has been so busy with her work and dance classes and school and getting ready for her two-month trip to Asia, she hasn't finalized my little schedule yet. I'm kinda bummed, but I totally understand her. Like, I'm super stoked about actually having a training schedule and a diet plan and everything, coupled with someone to report to so I don't shirk on my "assignments"... It's exactly what I need to get myself in even better shape. I've started slowly on my own, but I'm just waiting for Jo's official schedule - no sense in getting a routine down if you're gonna change it in week, you know? But, good news is that I've actually started to see some results already from what I've done so far. My stomach is not as round anymore and I don't eat quite as much, I'm less hungry. Which is good, cause I don't snack as much. And I'm getting better at eating regularly. The scale freaks me out cause it's pretty much always been my enemy, but I've weighed myself twice now and I think I've lost a little weight. Not much, but like maybe half a pound? I see that as major progress since I haven't actually been actively trying that hard. But as far as my measurements goes, that I've checked. And what I see is making me happy. Nearly 2 inches off my stomach - not the waist (although it's like an inch there too), not the hips, but inbetween there. The widest part of my body, I'm sad to say. :P But my stomach's flatter. Which I'm really stoked about.

Yeah, so anyway...

Aside from my workout schedule Jo's bringing me soon and my dance, I don't really do much these days. There's a lot of sitting around, watching TV, movies and trying to write or make graphics. Not too much luck in either of the creative areas... But, I am trying.

I would talk more about the fandoms, but I forget what I want to say like ten seconds after I think it. :P

So yeah, I'm off to go to a "concert" of sorts. With Dad. Featuring some old coworkers of Dad's. Should be fun, they're great musicians. So I should get dressed and head out.

Ta-ta.
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